My best mate, my groomsman, my arch rival st George supporter who I have a regular kg of prawns and carton of beer bet with. RIP
Please seek help, talk to your friends, suicide is not an option it doesn't solve anything it only creates more problems. Your life is useful no matter how bad things are.
My heart grieves for your lovely family and children.
Please note I am not writing this for your anonymous sympathy replies or a show of support I am trying to tell you all to check that you and your mates seek help if needed.